I have so much on my mind, too much to thing about. Too Many Whys.

WHY are you always more attracted to your friends than me ?
why do you always give your friends more attention then i do.
why is there always spaces between us, why can you always be so close to your friends than me.
why can't i see you on the weekend, why can't you go out. Why i don't find you wanting to see me when i'm always craving to even see you.
why this relationship must be hidden.


sigh sometimes i envies others, my friends. But i just hid my sorrow.
no one understands..

i'm super exhausted now, after the swim.
till then./